Chadwicks 2011

This is the beginning of the "change." This is my family at my mom's mom's funeral in July. GGB passed away at the ripe, wonderful age of almost 92. Who knew that when my mom sadly realized, in December, that she didn't really like celebrating her birthdays without her mom she would only have that one to be sad about? My mom died suddenly of heart failure on January 28th at the somewhat young age of 72. What was suppose to be a routine procedure didn't turn out so routine. My mom who has rallied time and time again for the past 15 years didn't rally this time. This amazing woman who has been not only my mom but one of my dearest friends for 47 years is not here any more. These past three weeks have been life altering. Things I never wanted to deal with or think about have come. Things I thought I couldn't handle have been handled. Tears have been shed in abundance time and time again and will continue to be shed in the days, weeks, months, and years ahead. But let me share something here...these tears are only for what I am missing, my mom's voice. Just hearing her say "Hi." All the other tears are for gratitude in being able to be a part of her life, of being able to be her daughter. She taught me most of what I know about the Savior, love of scriptures, prayer, serving others, leading kindly, following faithfully, loving family, and much, much more. My faith and feelings tell me that I will hear her voice again. I will know her and see her once again. This whole experience of having to deal with someone I love pass from this life to the next couldn't have been done without two things...my knowledge of the Plan of Salvation and the Atonement of Jesus Christ our Lord AND my family. My dad has been strong when he could have been weak. My sisters have been my equals in what needed to be taken care of. We have done this together because that is what families do. My own husband and children have figured out how to cook, clean, and carry on in my absence. I love them! My aunts and uncles and cousins have been the background strength and support that has lifted and still supports us all. Families are meant to help and support each other. Families are FOREVER! I thank my Father above every day that I have a mom who left me a legacy of love and faith that will be my comfort and help until I see her again.